Monday, July 31, 2006

I am Weary

That's the only word I have to describe how I feel. I want to sleep all the time. I'm unmotivated. It's stress. I think I'm going to have to quit watching the news.

Every day I see someone being mean to someone else for no good reason. Whether it's someone coming into my office (or calling) and not getting the answers that they want, even if it's the answers they need...and then them yelling at me and telling people I'm a "smart-ass bitch". Or people angry about things I have no control over and taking it out on me. Sorry, license costs are VOTED INTO LAW! I can't do anything about, but go ahead and use me as your verbal punching bag. And then Saturday we are at Braum's (a local hamburger/ice cream chain) and some woman is lashing out at the worker lady behind the counter. She was frazzled and doing the best she could. Why on earth was ketchup so important to the customer that she had to yell at that woman?

Why are people so damn mean anymore? Is it the heat? Do we all just feel entitled without giving a thought as to other peoples' feelings?

Then you watch the news and hear about countries bombing each other and then coming to the U.S. and saying "Make them stop!" without wanting to do anything about it themselves. I cannot watch the news anymore. I cannot hear about one more murder or bombing or hold-up. I cannot hear about kids getting abused or women getting raped.


I'm honestly afraid that I'm either going to dig myself a hole and never come out, or I'm going to go off like a ticking time-bomb. My chest is heavy and painful just thinking about it all.


Blogger Stefanie said...

I stopped watching the news ages ago. I have no idea what's happening in the world and I'm totally OK with it. They only report doom and gloom anyway. Who needs that extra stress? I look online for the weather reports and that's pretty much it. ESPECIALLY crimes against children...can't watch it. Don't even want to know.

11:16 AM  
Blogger Sarah said...

I am TOTALLY with you on not watching the news. I only get my news from highlights that stream across the box.

I hate how people treat each other. I hate how people lash out at everyone. I hate how people drive. I hate how people act like they are entitled to everything without working hard to get it.

I have no idea how we got here. I have no idea where we are going to go from here but it scares me.

4:17 PM  

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