Lori's Random Thoughts

Monday, July 31, 2006

I am Weary

That's the only word I have to describe how I feel. I want to sleep all the time. I'm unmotivated. It's stress. I think I'm going to have to quit watching the news.

Every day I see someone being mean to someone else for no good reason. Whether it's someone coming into my office (or calling) and not getting the answers that they want, even if it's the answers they need...and then them yelling at me and telling people I'm a "smart-ass bitch". Or people angry about things I have no control over and taking it out on me. Sorry, license costs are VOTED INTO LAW! I can't do anything about, but go ahead and use me as your verbal punching bag. And then Saturday we are at Braum's (a local hamburger/ice cream chain) and some woman is lashing out at the worker lady behind the counter. She was frazzled and doing the best she could. Why on earth was ketchup so important to the customer that she had to yell at that woman?

Why are people so damn mean anymore? Is it the heat? Do we all just feel entitled without giving a thought as to other peoples' feelings?

Then you watch the news and hear about countries bombing each other and then coming to the U.S. and saying "Make them stop!" without wanting to do anything about it themselves. I cannot watch the news anymore. I cannot hear about one more murder or bombing or hold-up. I cannot hear about kids getting abused or women getting raped.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE???

I'm honestly afraid that I'm either going to dig myself a hole and never come out, or I'm going to go off like a ticking time-bomb. My chest is heavy and painful just thinking about it all.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Another great money-making idea

Okay, let me know if you know of this already existing. I have a hard time believing that no one has thought of this before.

Have you ever been on the website realtor.com? You can basically search a database of all the houses in your area with the criteria you are looking for: price, number of bedrooms, number of bathrooms, etc. What I think we need is a site that does the same thing with used car dealers.

Most dealerships have their used car inventory on-line these days, but what if you know specifically what you are looking for, but can't think of every dealership in your area to check their site to see if they have it? There needs to be a website that is basically one big search engine linked to car dealerships. You put in your criteria: year range, make, model, price range, mileage, etc. and it finds all the cars in your area that match that description and links you to the dealers that have them.

Should be simple, right? Who knows. I think it would take some creative marketing to get the dealerships on-board, but really...how many of them are starting to put cars on eBay, which basically does a simplified version of the same thing?

Friday, April 21, 2006

The Fart Button

There is an ad on MySpace.com that got me. It was a big white square with a red button in the center and it said, "The Fart Button...press it. You know you want to." or something like that. In the lower right hand corner there are the words Sound: on/off.

Now, I KNEW this was fake. I KNEW it was an ad. But I had to push it. I had this insane need to hear a fake fart noise. I even turned the volume on my speakers up a notch. Just to get that funny little fake fart noise. Actually, I kind of hoped it would be a great big fake fart noise. LOL!

Of course, a new window popped up and it tried to get me to download jokes of the day, etc. I'm so disappointed and irritated with myself. It's not like I don't hear enough farting at home between Patrick and Moira. Jeez.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Awesome Invention Ideas - Feel free to steal

I have several, although I can only think of two, great invention ideas rolling around in my skull. I think they could potentially make someone a lot of money if you had to drive and money to figure out how to make it work.

Idea #1: Automatic cat feeder. We have a little dog that likes to eat the cat's food. So my theory is to have an automatic feeder that drops food only when the cat comes near it. Like an automatic garage door opener on it's collar or something.

Idea #2: Two-in-one clothes waster/dryer. The way my idea would work is by having a stackable unit, which would limit the size of your loads, but it does all the work so doing more loads would be no big deal. The washer is on top, so you load the clothes in the washer and set both the washer and the dryer. When the washer is done, the whole tub rotates 180 degrees and "dumps" the clothes into the bottom dryer. When the washer tub rotates the other 180 degrees to get back to it's starting point, it triggers a button that starts the dryer. All you have to do is fold and start your next load! You could actually do a whole load of laundry while you're at work. Set it and forget it.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Reflections

A girl I went to school with died last Thursday. She overdosed on sleeping pills, but no one is sure if it was accidental or intentional. I suspect it was intentional, because she still seemed very upset about her brother's suicide a few years ago. There is also a rumor that she had miscarried a pregnancy and was very depressed about it. Either way, I know of 4 parents (two bio and two step) that must be devastated by the loss of their second child.

As I reflected last night on the events that may have led her to do what she did, I started feeling really guilty, because as she was dying, I was worried about birthday cakes and party plans.

She and I weren't close. I don't know why I felt guilty. It isn't like I could do anything to change her mind and I think it was very egotistical of me to pretend that I could. And why should I feel guilty for worrying about our celebration of life? My daughter was having her first birthday party. She has a long future and lots of hope ahead of her.

So Trina makes #6 out of our high school class that is gone from this world. It makes me want to gather up those I love and hold them tightly and not let go.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Jealousy

Lately Patrick and I have really been struggling to make ends meet. It is no one's fault but our own, but it sucks nonetheless. Neither of us are so materialistic that we feel like we need the latest flatscreen television or ATV or computer. We don't wear high-end clothing. It's just not our style. But we would like to take an expensive vacation every couple of years and buy something really nice for each other or the girls occasionally. So this not having money thing really wears on us.

We went to the wedding of a friend's sister last weekend. I was already self-conscious because it was black-tie and I didn't feel super attractive under all this skin. My shoes weren't comfortable. We had both girls with us. My hair was frizzing out. Then I heard, "Yeah, I just made my first million last weekend." It was my friend's husband chatting with one of his buddies. I knew they were doing well. I just didn't realize it was that well. And for some reason I'm having a really hard time not feeling like I'm in a completely different social class now.

I barely want to speak to her anymore. I'm jealous. I'm embarrassed. I'm a moron.

I keep getting these e-mails reminding me to count my blessings in life because I may have something that they really want and can't have.

Well, I have my daughter. And I wouldn't trade her for all the money in the world. But they can't NOT have kids. They just haven't tried yet. It kind of sounds like they have it all. I'm the dummy who can't look past all of it.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Witch Hunt

Today is a bad day. Well, yesterday was, too.

Out of nowhere, our Asst. Director and our HR Manager and two IT guys showed up yesterday. They checked all of our computers in the office. There are 12, I think. They started with mine.

I still don't know exactly what they were looking for. Evidently, they had some sort of complaint. I have no idea who would have been complaining or what they were complaining about. Whatever it was, they found something on Billy's computer. Billy is one of my fish techs. He wasn't even here. They took his computer with them to OKC and there was a behind-closed-doors conference call with our supervisor and Billy's biologist.

Billy said he was told that they found a full-length porn video on his computer. This doesn't make any sense to me, because even if Billy were the type to have something like that, he's smart enough to remove it. He's our computer guy in the office!

I hate this. I hate thinking that he might lose his job. I hate feeling like something may have been planted. I don't know who would have it out for him. I hate this icky in my stomach. I hate that my computer was "swept". It feels like someone has been through my underwear drawer. I hate that they left their software on my computer so that I know exactly what they were looking at.

I hate feeling violated. I hate feeling like someone is trying to destroy my work family.